i feel like i have lost you again.

you always say we don't understand each other. maybe because we do not listen well enough. i'm sorry for everything. i know i'm always the cause of our problems. i'm sorry for giving you such a hard time and for being too possessive. i didn't mean to.

but i'm tired of blaming myself for every single fight. i'm giving you your freedom now. hope you'd be happier this way. if we're really meant for each other then so be it. until that day comes, i'll prepare myself for you. i'll do my best to be the person He wants for you. but if not, i'll be content with loving you from afar.

i am saddened by being the reason why you feel so 'strangled'. hope u find that 'someone' who will give you the breathing space you need. hope she'll give you everything i can't. hope you love her--the way you know how to love before there was me. make her happy. don't say 'whatever' even if it's just a joke whenever she's trying to tell you her heart's content--it'll make her feel worthless.

to that someone who will have your heart:

understand him.
give him breathing space.
write him sweet letters.
tell him jokes.
pray for him.
cook for him. feed him right.
watch his game. cheer for him.
surprise him even without special occassions.
watch a movie with him.
hug him whenever he feels sad. just cheer him up.
don't make him leave without having said you love him.
kiss him on the cheek before you say goodbye. just give him woodpecker kisses.
watch him walk away from your house because he'll wave goodbye.
make him happy.
just LOVE him.